His fingers tighten around her leg as she works through it, forcing himself not to judge her fist reaction. Zari may be even worse than he is at expressing emotion honestly so he knows to wait, and what comes next has him holding his breath. John lets her get all the way to the end before interjecting, and even a little after that. His grip releases and he slips his arm around her shoulder instead, drawing her in against him.
"You know that does freak me out," he eventually manages, turning to press the softest kiss ever to her temple. While it's terrifying, he knows this is a two-way street, and that's much different from anything he's ever had before; or allowed himself to have. If he had to make the same decision today, he would probably choose Behrad, and that's something that follows him, too. Unknowingly, he thinks of it at the same time she is, glancing back down at the cards. "Wanna hear the rest?"
John takes a stabilizing breath and points to each card as he goes, squeezing her tighter against his side.
"The Magician is, quite rudely, pointing out my untapped potential." AKA how he always holds himself back in relationships. "While the Empress is there to signify growth... in a nurturing sense. Which couldn't have anything to do with your influence," he teases, his face heating up at the realization that even Tarot is calling him out for being self-destructive. In his version of the cards, she even looks a little like Zari. "The Six of Pentacles warns of codependency and to take care giving is mutual... If done responsibly, the sharing will be rewarding however. Which brings us to the Six of Swords. The release of emotional baggage and pursuing a new path in life. We must take heed not to leave behind anything important as we move into the next phase."
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"You know that does freak me out," he eventually manages, turning to press the softest kiss ever to her temple. While it's terrifying, he knows this is a two-way street, and that's much different from anything he's ever had before; or allowed himself to have. If he had to make the same decision today, he would probably choose Behrad, and that's something that follows him, too. Unknowingly, he thinks of it at the same time she is, glancing back down at the cards. "Wanna hear the rest?"
John takes a stabilizing breath and points to each card as he goes, squeezing her tighter against his side.
"The Magician is, quite rudely, pointing out my untapped potential." AKA how he always holds himself back in relationships. "While the Empress is there to signify growth... in a nurturing sense. Which couldn't have anything to do with your influence," he teases, his face heating up at the realization that even Tarot is calling him out for being self-destructive. In his version of the cards, she even looks a little like Zari. "The Six of Pentacles warns of codependency and to take care giving is mutual... If done responsibly, the sharing will be rewarding however. Which brings us to the Six of Swords. The release of emotional baggage and pursuing a new path in life. We must take heed not to leave behind anything important as we move into the next phase."